The Fill Part 2

I've been "snugged up" per my surgeon. The fill was definitely not worth all the worry and sleep loss. It was easy. I drank the water, he put in the saline until I felt full and then he stopped. 4CCs of saline and I'm all set for a month of restriction.
I've lost 11 pound since my last check up 3 weeks ago and my surgeon was very happy with me.
I'm moving on to high protein low carb REAL food now. Chicken and vegetables and meat!! No more creamy and smooth.
I'm a little scared to let go of all the cottage cheese and tomato soup but I need to move on to real food and begin living life as a banded person. And as a normal weighted person.
I'm 34 pounds down as of yesterday. The band is working. For the first time in my entire life as a fat person, I feel my old life and what defined who I am slipping away. I will still be me but without any exceptions. Without any excuses. I won't be a pretty face or a shame. As in, it's a shame she's so fat, she'd be pretty if she lost weight. The monkey will forever be off my back.
I refuse to focus on anything but the recent past. The goals already met and the life I choose to live every time I wake up. Nothing matters but today. The "goal weight" will reveal it's self in good time. But today, I am the very best me, 34 pounds less of something I was.
Today I tried chunks of chicken, green beans and salad for lunch. I ate 3 pepperoni slices for dinner but at 9:20 I am hungry. Protein and low carb. 2 oz of cheese or maybe some chicken again.
For the next few days it will all be an experiment to see what goes down easy and what my band rejects. I'm excited (and scared) to be entering this phase of the process. All of the initial work is behind me and these next few days will set the tone for how I will eat for the rest of my life.