Finally, after day four, I am over the hump, for the most part. I don't feel panicked or resentful or terrified about not eating. It's becoming a habit, I guess.
Last night Larry and I had a conversation that went something like this:
L before bed: Do you need me to get you anything?
Me: Yes, a footlong veggie sub with extra mayo and salt and pepper
L: Oh, I could go for that, want me to run up and get us one?
L: It probably wouldn't hurt if we just did it once
Me: No
L: You sure?
Me: Yes, I'm actually sure.
And I was. Even if he brought it to me, I wouldn't eat it. I'm digging the water weight loss. I can see my ankles and my rings, WOW, they are almost too loose to wear safely. I keep feeling like they're going to fly off.
I feel a budding sense of strength and a kind of high from being able to resist. I think this is what gets people through fasting. I kind of get it now. The hunger doesn't own me anymore.
This morning, the sub doesn't even sound good.
At the risk of sharing too much information with the internet, I have to acknowledge too that everything coming out of me? smells better. Even my breath. So weird.
And, in the interest of rigorous honesty, I must also acknowledge that I did have my little cheats yesterday and probably will continue to have them but after being on the message boards with some of my Doctor's lap band recipients I was comforted by their thoughts on the fast and that they also had their cheat foods. I AM NOT ALONE!!
Things are definitely looking up.
Today I am prepared for a long day of baseball and I am not afraid.
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Iam thinking could i go 2 weeks on liquid...but not get the lap band and have a good start???? Are ya taking any Vitamins? And is it any liquid?
Jettie,
It's the optifast weight loss shakes, sugar free jello and popsicles, chicken bullion, diet soda, crystal light. That's it :)
It definitely would give your body a jump start for weight loss.
and yes, I am taking vitamins but have to stop all herbs etc before surgery.
thanks for stopping by BOTH of my blogs, you're a dear!
Hello!! I know Iam think I could do it nOw!!!!!!!!! but probably would have a hell of a time with it!! It is good to read your words you are such a writer...and evan though it sounds like a tuff time....I mean the part about using your finger as a knife..I laughed cause You just made it hilarious! You are an inspiration!!
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